Yeah,don't worry,i wouldn't like me either.

maybe i'm trapped in the darkness for too long that i've adapted to be numb of my feelings.or so,a bottomless hole/pit of whatever one calls it.i felt like an empty shell,with no heading,submitting to the orders of people around me,not that i'm faulting them or so,but i just feel nothing.nothing more than a retainee starting school 3 weeks later and nothing less than a destitude trapped in her own destiny.or maybe fate's a better word for me.i've completed nothing that seemed constructive,to me yet for i'm still not giving a fresh clear start of success.still living in the disapppointment to myself and others,but most importantly,myself thats of course.am i that stupid in the first place?or is it just me being cocky(and i know it yet i don't think a change is relevant)on how things were?or both with more factors coming up along the way if i were still to name them.gosh,this sucks terribly.i kinda do detest me now.