Hide the lie.

so okay,i seriously wanna bang my head against the wall cause i guess my ego's fighting back on the retaining issue.i seriously could wear a mask everywhere in school,and not walk around.i guess i'm gonna be like the movie scene of mean girls;toliet=break!aha,thats what i'll do.i can't bear to face anyone,much less my batch of people.gosh,i know i'm procrastinating a lot but i'm just discontented of how things are going.yes yes,i deserve it,hit me hard on the hard please.what did i just do?omg,i just confided my situtation earlier than predicted.yes,someone bash the weasles out of me.i need a massage therapist and aromatherapy treatment now,fast!i need to chillax,but as the days go by,i seem to lose my true self a little more and a little bit.how am i gonna cope for the rest of 2009.i should rejoice cause i have 1 additional year to master the concepts of my foundation.i wanna score.i wanna do well.i need to put in effort for once.tracy!wake up.i need myself to shake me hard so i'm paying attention to what i'm posting here.as it can be seen,the above crap is rubbish cause i'm distracted with reality and the activities taking in the surroundings.
1 more thing i wanna mention is how fast the attitudes of human change against like less than a month period of time.its pathetically fascinating actually cause you'll kinda feel sorry about the loss of what you thought a pal and interesting cause you get to see the different types of people co-existing with you for like a year.how Human nature works man,thanks alot who've contributed.your efforts have reaped disbelievable results.and if you had even thought about the reason why,maybe ask nature itself for it is what which evolve you.
oh please,call upon the name itself however you like.some matters can't be produce the same impact as it did the first time even though its repeated back the same method.it'll just cause the extent of the mess increasingly difficult to clear up.thats why its called a first time.how mundanely stupid can nature get at times.shrug,i just can't help if there hopeless aliens on planet earth.maybe i should instigate a freaks/dorks-cleansing plan to whomever shares similar sentiments as me.there's no stupid people,only lazy ones.

yes i admit i am one,and my ego paid for it.