The party is just getting started when i die.

alright,it doesn't sound that worse when i say it but i just feel like this now.no one's celebrating of course unless you would consider those peepo rejoicing their marvellous 'o' level results.like 10 A1s,8 A1s one A2,only subject which didn't get an A1;German!can you imagine that.i'm gonna be competing with this insane-for studying-gits in the upcoming(not that i'm looking forward to it,and also any forthcoming)A levels examination.like zomg,i'm gonna be fighting very hopelesslyyet competitively with them.damn,i'm so gonna study.why,upon realisation there's a new addition of #regret in my 'regret agenda' now. #(?)i didn't study the whole year in 2008.although its what everyone else is saying,idk,to make them feel more confident that they put no/minimal effort in their academics and ended up promoted,oh wells.i guess one just reap what they sow.its so darn true.yah,my humongous ego is gonna be paying the consequences,consider a lesson learnt or not although taking 1 extra year is so damn suitable for people like me,but yeah.i deserve it man.
okay,so lets do a little poking around on the j2's life.hmm,pretty much hetic and different from j1,of course i'm not surprised,like come on,by july or so,they have to be super prepared for A levels although i'm doubtful most of them aren't.okay,its just my personal opinion which too applies for myself.not that i'm only trying to look on to the pessimistic perspective that being promoted is real great but it isn't if one scraped through;barely too.it pretty sucks yah lah,like having nightmares on the reputation column like i'm going be identified as the retainee,yah.the retainee with the bob.gosh,it sounds darn mean.i really do hate it when people keep putting the idea of retaining like its drinking water.its so undescribably annoying when they don't even put their words to action since they so affirmed blah blah(mouths dangling with the pros of retain)or how about the idea of a 3 year Jc course islandwide(okay,it won't sound that much like a Jc route anymore)currently,from dependable resources,class's being really draggy and tired,like a machine which worked 24/7 and hadn't had any rest since whenever.yah,Jc life's tough,there shouldn't be the word rest.but according to them,the absence of condusive noise,entertainment,laughter and most importantly the exclusive members of 123 08` has proven an impact on the current 219.its still exclusive cause the existence of those dorks still hadn't caught my attention yet.
indeed its saddening not to be able to graduate in the same batch.will the obstacles in life be any different than it could have been if i had not cause such a change to my educational route?though right now,thinking when i step into the society,its very unlikely to find competitors in my batch but who knows what unforeseen situations will take place?i really have little confidence in the future.;my future.back-up route?=(mind's a blank) i don't have any extra elective,foreign language,cultural talent even?how to even compete with this additional burden of being held back another year.though i do not say aloud i really mind retaining,but then again i'm sure of myself i will end up crap unsatisfactory 'A' level results if i do go up to j2,what a dilema and horrid mess i'm in.i don't wanna suffer the rest of my life living under people's noses although my fate is already sealed that i'm gonna be doing that from the moment i screwed up my PSLE. my competitors,those who secured a place in the finest schools in the country.gosh,what am i gonna do.having known such brillant people in the upcoming batch i'll be pitting against,i'm not the least confident in scoring;to even get started.